Growing:)

Hey there, well I am still here & growing. I am definitely bigger at this point than I was w/ Connelly. I went to the doctor on Tuesday and he said everything looks good. We have our u/s on March 26th, but we are still not finding out:( I am still excited to see the babe though. I have been feeling bean a lot more, but I still wouldn't say everyday at this point. Sunday the baby completely turned around and that was kind of uncomfortable, but other than that the feelings have been very small. I did feel like I felt bean quite a bit yesterday though, so I am hoping for another day like that today. We bought a truck this week. Jeremy's car broke down quite a while ago & we have been borrowing cars since, so it is so nice to have one again. It is going to be hard w/ the payments (other car was paid off), but we'll have to make it work. We started the Dave Ramsey class last week, so I am hoping that we are able to buckle down on our finances and really get things in order! Connelly is doing great, getting bigger & more intelligent each day. I just smile thinking about her, b/c it is crazy how much you love your lil' ones!!!

Well, hope everyone is having a good week!
Beth

Things still going well

I haven't had bleeding for a little over a week now & we even did "it" last night:) I know Jeremy was REALLY ready and actually so did I. It was so nice to be intimate again w/ my hubby:) We decided that if I don't bleed in the next couple days we'll try again. So we'll see. I'm not feeling the babe every day like I was w/ Connelly at this point. I am only a couple days past that point, but I am still a little disappointed, I really want to be able to feel the baby every day to help reassure me that everything is okay. Even w/ the doppler, you still worry. I just read someone's blog today that miscarried at 16 weeks, I just am so nervous, that it could happen to me. I really hope not though, I so want to bring this baby home in July:) It is funny that time has gone by faster. W/ Connelly is counted down the minutes between doctor's appointments, and this time I keep forgetting that I actually go back next week. I almost want to push it back one more week and then ask for the u/s then, rather than going back next week & not getting an u/s for 3 more weeks after that. We'll see. It is also weird b/c I was counting down the seconds until we found out the sex w/ Connelly & it is hard to believe that I am only a few weeks away from when we did that w/ her. I guess since we aren't finding out, that doctor's appt. isn't as appealing, but I am still VERY anxious to see our lil' bean:)

Okay, well back to American Idol, hope you all are doing well:)
Beth

I'm still here

Hello there, is anyone still out there? Hope so, sorry I've been gone so long:) I have been doing good. I have still been spotting for the past few weeks. Two days ago was the first day in weeks that I didn't, however, it started again yesterday. I am SO over the spotting. Blood is nasty and disgusting and smelly and I HATE IT!!!
This week has sucked b/c Connelly has been sick all week. Ear infections again. She is supposed to get tubes on Tuesday, so we are hoping she is well enough to do so. She is napping right now while I watch DVRed shows:) I should be cleaning, but whatev, I want to relax.

I hope everyone is having a great day.
Have a good weekend.
Beth

Finally bigger boobs, but still bleeding.

Well the red blood scares haven't happened in about 2 weeks, however, I am still constantly having alot of brown blood. Since Thursday night, I have had some cramping & brown bleeding every day. It is getting VERY old!!! I go in tomorrow so I hope they'll do another u/s to check the tear or whatever was causing this.

My boobs are FINALLY growing!!! I started noticing it a little less than a week ago. Even yesterday I was wearing this tank w/ l/s shirt over it & I was leaning over & Jeremy was like holy cow those babies are growing. I was so excited!!! When you are small chested, it is nice to have a little extra:)

I have been feeling pretty good otherwise. Like I said above, I wish the cramping & spotting would stop, but I check the baby w/ my doppler about every other day & bean's little heart is beating away:) I am at least starting to get used to the bleeding & spotting so it doesn't freak me out anymore.

Sorry I was so distant for awhile. We went to Colorado over Martin Luther King Jr. weekend for 5 days & then Connelly & I were both have health issues so I was just a little absent. I am so ready for winter to be over. I am glad February is almost here & then March and then spring. I can't wait for Bean to get here!!!

My sister is going to do IUI sometime this week I think. I have a feeling she won't tell anyone, but I know that she was getting ready to ovulate, so it should be soon. Please keep her in your thoughts & prayers, I know that is a really hard time for her!

Hope everyone is doing well.
Beth

More bleeding, but still okay!

I went in to see my doc yesterday & he cleaned out down there & said I looked good. So anyways, Connelly was sick today & so I had to take her to her doctor this morning, & I knew I was doing way too much, but couldn't really work around it. When we walked into Target to fill her prescription I felt my pants fill up again. I rushed to the bathroom & once again, w/in seconds had bled through my underwear, long underwear & jeans. I was so freaked out once again. I called the doctor's office & they wanted to get me in asap for an u/s. Jeremy met me there & they did the dildo cam this time, but baby still looked okay. The doc came in for it too, so that was nice. He was asking the sonographer if I had placenta previa (which I need to google, b/c don't really understand) and she said no b/c I am too early, that right now they just call it a low placenta. Still don't really understand, but he said that the blood was maybe caused from a very small partial separation of the placenta. So again, he said to just take it easy, but he thinks the baby is still going to be okay. I decided that we are going to take my doppler on vaca w/ us & do that if I get worried or have more bleeding. He did use the doppler yesterday & found the heartbeat fast, so I have more confidence now that I'll be able to.

Thanks for your prayers!
Beth

Bean is still alive & kicking:)

So we went in for the u/s today & at first I couldn't see a heart beating, so I was a little freaked out, but I had thought I had seen the baby moving. But then the sonographer moved the thing around a bit & we were able to see the heart beating away at 162. I am SO relieved that Bean is doing okay. She said that there was just a small nick in a vesicle I believe and there was still some fluid (blood) in there, so she said I still could have some bleeding or spotting, but I am hoping not. She thought the baby looked great though. She seemed pretty confused that the ER doc wouldn't do an u/s or didn't try the doppler. I am going to ask my OB about it tomorrow, they have set an appt. up for me to see him tomorrow. Thank you for all your thoughts & prayers.

Beth

We may have lost the baby:(

Yesterday while walking around Costco I felt my underwear fill and so I rushed to the bathroom praying I wasn't spotting again and was in no way ready for what I saw. My underwear was soaking w/ red blood. I was completely freaked out. I called the doctor and he told me to lay down and if the bleeding didn't stop that I would need to go to the ER. Well it didn't stop so we finally headed that way around 5pm. We were there for a few hours. The doctor said that the mouth of my uterus is still closed so I hadn't miscarried yet. He was very hopeful, to where he said that 90% of the time everything will be fine & even said "congratulations" which I thought was a little weird. They wouldn't do an u/s though b/c he said they would only do that if they were scared of an eptopic pregnancy or if I needed surgery right them, so that was pretty disappointing. So Jeremy & I have just been in limbo not really sure to be positive or prepare ourselves for the worst. We will be at the doctor's office tomorrow at 9am when they open. I will keep you posted. I was still bleeding late last night & this morning. But as of now it is brown blood no more red.

Please keep me in your prayers!
Beth