So the OB appointment went pretty good yesterday. I found alot of pros & some cons with the office. First off I had already been second guessing my decision. My sister delivered at the hospital & two days ago had emailed me the name of her OB and she said she loved him. So at that point I was thinking should I go with him or should I use who the NP recommended. I decided to at least try out the new OB so I went. When I got there the office was a bit cluttered, very old, and the waiting room had chairs that looked disgusting. I know that sounds very materialistic & superficial, however, I want someplace that I feel clean & good in not dirty. I waited for quite a while & so did all the other women so that also had me a bit concerned. The first nurse I saw was great, she was so nice & I really liked her. But again the rooms were a bit old & worn looking. The nurse assistant then came in to give me all my information. I really liked her too. They gave me a whole bag full of goodies & information. It was great how much they gave me b/c it really will be nice to have in the future. She told me that I would see the OB in 2 weeks and at that time she might do an u/s or might not. I think I am going to push for it though, b/c she said after that, I won't get another u/s until we find out the sex of the baby. Yikes that is forever away. She said after my appointment in 2 weeks I then would see her every 4 weeks until 24 weeks maybe (I can't remember). Then I would go every 2 weeks until 35/36 weeks & then every week until the baby is born. I hate that I have to wait so long in between appointments. I know that that is normal, but I am such a paranoid person, that is really going to suck.
So now I really don't know what to do. I feel like I LOVED the NP at the RE's office & this office is where she goes (she is pregnant) & I really trust her opinion and so I should stay. But on the other side, I wonder if I could feel more comfortable where my sister went. The IDEAL answer would be that my old OB/GYN would still take my insurance & I could go back to him. I think I may even look into changing insurance to PPO if it isn't too much more (even though I think it will be) just so I can have him back. Open enrollment is sometime in May & the insurance would start in July so, not too far off, but we'll see. I think that I will stay put right now since I have already have had to change twice now. I hope I am happy with whatever I choose.
Well, I better get some work done while I am feeling good. Yesterday was great. I went home after my appointment & got alot done around the house & made a GREAT dinner (spicy peanut chicken), I will have to share it w/ you all like Jen does the next time I make it. So hopefully today is alot like yesterday.
Have a great day!
Beth
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Off to the New OB
So I have my OB consultation today. I don't really know what it is going to be like, but I wrote down a bunch of questions to ask them, so we'll see. I am hoping they can get me in to see my OB maybe sometime next week & hopefully they'll do an u/s but I don't really know how it all works from this point.
I am getting antsy for this weekend to be able to spill the beans to EVERYONE!!! I know those that already know are also getting antsy, so hopefully they can hold it in for a couple more days. Jeremy's cousin, the one that miscarried at 6 weeks, and I have been emailing each other a bunch. I feel badly for her b/c she doesn't think she got pregnant again this month & she wants it so badly & I am sure even more so now that we are pregnant. I found out that she is going to be at the event where we are telling some people on his mom's side, so I feel badly that she has to be there for that. She knows that I understand if she is sad, I know how she feels. So hopefully it won't be too hard on her.
Oh, I got so sick yesterday. I decided that I am a afternoon & evening sickness girl. I barely made it through the end of the day. It has gotten way worse the last 3 days. Yikes, this could be a trend, so far so good today though.
Okay, I better get going. Have a great day.
Beth
I am getting antsy for this weekend to be able to spill the beans to EVERYONE!!! I know those that already know are also getting antsy, so hopefully they can hold it in for a couple more days. Jeremy's cousin, the one that miscarried at 6 weeks, and I have been emailing each other a bunch. I feel badly for her b/c she doesn't think she got pregnant again this month & she wants it so badly & I am sure even more so now that we are pregnant. I found out that she is going to be at the event where we are telling some people on his mom's side, so I feel badly that she has to be there for that. She knows that I understand if she is sad, I know how she feels. So hopefully it won't be too hard on her.
Oh, I got so sick yesterday. I decided that I am a afternoon & evening sickness girl. I barely made it through the end of the day. It has gotten way worse the last 3 days. Yikes, this could be a trend, so far so good today though.
Okay, I better get going. Have a great day.
Beth
Monday, April 28, 2008
Holy Shit, I am REALLY pregnant!!!
I got back from the doctor's office a while ago & everything looks GREAT!!! Baby is due December 9th, like I thought. Heart rate was 158 BPM, which she said was good. We picked a hospital this weekend & so the nurse gave me recommendations for OBs. I will call today & hopefully set that up & then we are set for a normal pregnancy. Thank you all so much for your comments, I am really starting to relax. Yesterday, I was reading out of my pregnancy books & it hit me that everything that I am feeling IS normal for a pregnancy & I am just paranoid but odds are I will have a baby THIS December. I can't wait. So I attached the pics from today, doodle looks great (but they are a little hard to see)!!
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!Have a good day!
Beth
Friday, April 25, 2008
A Touch of Food Poisoning
So I felt awful last night, horrible diarrhea (sorry, tmi). I woke up with a sore throat & aching bones & stomach. I was so nervous that it might hurt the pregnancy that I called my regular doctor. I was too embarrassed to contact the RE b/c I have already called them 3 times this week. The doctor told me to call the RE, so I did. The nurse thought I would be fine that my stomach was just aching b/c of the diarrhea. I felt much better mentally after speaking with her.
I am still a pretty nervous about Monday's u/s, but w/ all your comments, I am starting to relax a bit. I just want this so bad & I am so scared I could lose it.
I can't wait to go home tonight & just relax. I love weekends!!!
Have a great one.
Beth
I am still a pretty nervous about Monday's u/s, but w/ all your comments, I am starting to relax a bit. I just want this so bad & I am so scared I could lose it.
I can't wait to go home tonight & just relax. I love weekends!!!
Have a great one.
Beth
Thursday, April 24, 2008
What does Pregnancy feel like?
Well I feel normal most of the day most days, which has me a bit worrisome. I know I am worrying probably for no reason at all, but I don't know what normal is b/c this is my first time being this much pregnant. I feel uneasy at some points of some days, but usually I just feel normal, like I did when I wasn't pregnant. I am a bit worried that things aren't going as planned with doodle & that really scares me.
I went to the grocery store last night & I was starving when I got there, so I stopped by the deli & got a chicken finger to eat while I shopped. I had eaten about half of it, and even noticed with one of the bites that it was a bit different looking on the inside. I just told myself though that maybe it was darker meat or juicy. That is until I got to one bite, when thank god I looked closely & realized it was COMPLETELY RAW. And I am not saying a little pink, that makes you nervous, it was RAW. It looked as it I had gotten it out of the freezer, thawed it, and it was RAW. I was really disgusted & nervous being pregnant & eating raw chicken. I called my mom, and she thought I would be fine, but told me to call a nurse & tell the manager. I found a manager & showed him the chicken finger. He was horrified, especially after I told him I was pregnant. He told me to call him if anything were to happen & kept apologizing. As I was leaving he ran up & gave me a $15 gift card, apologized again, & said all the chicken fingers had been pulled. I wish I would have taken a picture of it, so I could show you. It was pretty disgusting. So I am going to call the RE today, just to make sure that I will be fine. I think I will also ask about me feeling normal & not necessarily pregnant. I haven't got sick at all, so I don't think I got food poisoning, so that's good!!!
I will try to download pics from the concert the other night later today, so I can share them. It was such a blast.
I have to go to the dentist in a bit, and I don't even remember what for. Maybe a filling or something, who knows.
Have a good day!
Beth
I went to the grocery store last night & I was starving when I got there, so I stopped by the deli & got a chicken finger to eat while I shopped. I had eaten about half of it, and even noticed with one of the bites that it was a bit different looking on the inside. I just told myself though that maybe it was darker meat or juicy. That is until I got to one bite, when thank god I looked closely & realized it was COMPLETELY RAW. And I am not saying a little pink, that makes you nervous, it was RAW. It looked as it I had gotten it out of the freezer, thawed it, and it was RAW. I was really disgusted & nervous being pregnant & eating raw chicken. I called my mom, and she thought I would be fine, but told me to call a nurse & tell the manager. I found a manager & showed him the chicken finger. He was horrified, especially after I told him I was pregnant. He told me to call him if anything were to happen & kept apologizing. As I was leaving he ran up & gave me a $15 gift card, apologized again, & said all the chicken fingers had been pulled. I wish I would have taken a picture of it, so I could show you. It was pretty disgusting. So I am going to call the RE today, just to make sure that I will be fine. I think I will also ask about me feeling normal & not necessarily pregnant. I haven't got sick at all, so I don't think I got food poisoning, so that's good!!!
I will try to download pics from the concert the other night later today, so I can share them. It was such a blast.
I have to go to the dentist in a bit, and I don't even remember what for. Maybe a filling or something, who knows.
Have a good day!
Beth
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
LIVING ON A PRAYER!!!
Thought the title was appropriate for Bon Jovi tonight. Can't wait, skipping out of a work a bit early to meet some friends for a couple beers (them not me) & some wings. It should be loads of fun.
Peeing is back to normal w/ no abnormal discharge. I am starting to get a bit comfortable with thinking I am pregnant. I still can't wait for the u/s on Monday & then telling everyone finally next weekend. I am getting antsy, b/c I am not good at keeping secrets this long.
Okay, well not much to say today, so have a great day.
Beth
Peeing is back to normal w/ no abnormal discharge. I am starting to get a bit comfortable with thinking I am pregnant. I still can't wait for the u/s on Monday & then telling everyone finally next weekend. I am getting antsy, b/c I am not good at keeping secrets this long.
Okay, well not much to say today, so have a great day.
Beth
Monday, April 21, 2008
Dreadful Monday
It's Monday again and I am already ready for Friday. I have such a busy week this week & I am not looking forward to it at all.
Tonight we have to go out to dinner w/ 2 couples from Jeremy's old work. I really like both, however, one of the girls, the last time we went out to dinner, was wasted before we left our house, and I just was so annoyed. I think I am completely turned off by them now, and am not looking forward to going tonight. I am the type of person that doesn't drink at all during the week except for maybe in a blue moon (not now at all, of course). I don't really enjoy drinking during dinner, b/c I love food too much & I think that they don't usually mix. I usually only drink when I am going on on the town on a weekend night. This girl was shit-canned & her & her boyfriend had brought his son, so they were driving him home drunk. How tacky & unsafe can you be. I am the type of person that always thinks about the consequences & do not do too risky of behavior & so I am annoyed sometimes when people don't think & are careless. So anyways, I don't know if I mentioned it, but I am NOT looking forward to tonight, but I am hoping I am wrong & I have a good time, b/c I know Jerm is looking somewhat forward to it.
Tuesday night is BON JOVI!!! I can't wait. There is 8 of us going & so it is going to be so much fun. It will be the last time I have to play "not-pregnant" in front of our friends, b/c we shouldn't see any of our friends again for a couple weeks & that is when we are going to spill the beans!!!
We also need to go look at hospitals this week. My GYN doesn't take my insurance anymore, like I told you all in an earlier post, and I transferred to someone else but not totally committed. My RE said to tour a few hospitals & then let him know the ones I like best, and he will recommend doctor's for those hospitals to be my OB. I actually am thinking about changing my insurance to PPO in May so that way I can go back to my old GYN, but we'll see. Right now my insurance is free, so that has a lot of benefits obviously.
I have had a bit of discharge today that doesn't look like previous days. Gross, I know, but is this normal??? I am worried, that something is going wrong. It isn't too bad, I just noticed that when I pee that when I wipe, it is a little darker than just pee??? I don't know, probably over analyzing it, b/c it isn't spotting or bleeding.
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edited story below to not sound like such a bitch, even though I know I wasn't in the wrong
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We had a pretty good weekend in STL. The wedding was great, she looked beautiful & I got to see all my friends. I was so tired though. There was a 2 1/2 hour break in between wedding & reception & all our friends came back to where we were staying so I wasn't able to nap. Once I started dancing, I had a good time though. I did have a bit of an incident w/ one of my drama queen friends. Her husband tends to start fights at big events & Jeremy sometimes gets annoyed w/ that. I don't dislike this guy, but him & his wife together sometimes are just too much for us. At one point, Jeremy was like I hate Jordan. Jeremy was wasted, so I just told him to quit being mean, but I thought it was weird he brought that up out of nowhere. Anyways at the end of the night Jordan came up to me and said, "are we going to do this now or later?" I am so confused at this point & asked him what he was talking about. He went on to tell me I had asked Katie (wife) and another one of my friends to get out of a picture that I wanted of me w/ my 2 best friends. I was so confused, completely sober & was like WTF!!! Anyway, I went to try to talk with her & she wasn't having it. She was being so stupid, she was wasted & so I was still pretty confused. I learned from a couple of my other friends that for the past couple hours she had been up there crying saying I had told her & another girl to get out of the picture that I wanted of my 2 best friends & me. I am not an evil person, & so I would never intentionally hurt anyone's feelings or exclude them. I told her it was a misunderstanding, but she wouldn't talk to me. I was so annoyed b/c she can be such a fucking drama queen & I knew she had fabricated the story & was trying to get everyone including her parents that were there against me. When we left I found out from Jeremy that Jordan had come up to him and said "why is your wife being mean to my wife." Are we fucking 12, are you kidding me? If I upset you, come talk to me, don't bring our husband's in this, we are no longer in high school, we are what I like to call adults!!! I also found out she was standing at the top of the balcony flipping me off, real mature. I left & figured I would talk with her the next day. She called my best friend that I was staying with the next day & had acted like nothing happened, when she was rude to her too, I was even more annoyed. She called me later on yesterday, and tried to make small talk, finally I brought up the night & told her she misunderstood, she blew things WAY out of proportion & she was wasted & I was sober. She apologized but still acted like a wounded fucking puppy dog. I couldn't remember the incident for the life of me & new it was a misunderstanding, but I remembered this morning that I did ask Jeremy to take a pic of my 2 best friends & me, but is that a sin. Yeah I think she was standing there, but she never posed & I asked her to leave like she told everyone else. I asked myself if I should feel bad, but then I decided that no we are not in high school, I should be able to take a picture with my 2 best friends w/o having to baby those around me. I am just annoyed. We have always butt heads a bit b/c I don't let her act like the world revolves around her & so I think that gets on her nerves, and so she tries to pick fights alot w/ me. Sorry for venting, but I wanted to get it off my chest (which has been very sore lately), so thanks for listening!!!
Have a good Monday.
Beth
Tonight we have to go out to dinner w/ 2 couples from Jeremy's old work. I really like both, however, one of the girls, the last time we went out to dinner, was wasted before we left our house, and I just was so annoyed. I think I am completely turned off by them now, and am not looking forward to going tonight. I am the type of person that doesn't drink at all during the week except for maybe in a blue moon (not now at all, of course). I don't really enjoy drinking during dinner, b/c I love food too much & I think that they don't usually mix. I usually only drink when I am going on on the town on a weekend night. This girl was shit-canned & her & her boyfriend had brought his son, so they were driving him home drunk. How tacky & unsafe can you be. I am the type of person that always thinks about the consequences & do not do too risky of behavior & so I am annoyed sometimes when people don't think & are careless. So anyways, I don't know if I mentioned it, but I am NOT looking forward to tonight, but I am hoping I am wrong & I have a good time, b/c I know Jerm is looking somewhat forward to it.
Tuesday night is BON JOVI!!! I can't wait. There is 8 of us going & so it is going to be so much fun. It will be the last time I have to play "not-pregnant" in front of our friends, b/c we shouldn't see any of our friends again for a couple weeks & that is when we are going to spill the beans!!!
We also need to go look at hospitals this week. My GYN doesn't take my insurance anymore, like I told you all in an earlier post, and I transferred to someone else but not totally committed. My RE said to tour a few hospitals & then let him know the ones I like best, and he will recommend doctor's for those hospitals to be my OB. I actually am thinking about changing my insurance to PPO in May so that way I can go back to my old GYN, but we'll see. Right now my insurance is free, so that has a lot of benefits obviously.
I have had a bit of discharge today that doesn't look like previous days. Gross, I know, but is this normal??? I am worried, that something is going wrong. It isn't too bad, I just noticed that when I pee that when I wipe, it is a little darker than just pee??? I don't know, probably over analyzing it, b/c it isn't spotting or bleeding.
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edited story below to not sound like such a bitch, even though I know I wasn't in the wrong
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We had a pretty good weekend in STL. The wedding was great, she looked beautiful & I got to see all my friends. I was so tired though. There was a 2 1/2 hour break in between wedding & reception & all our friends came back to where we were staying so I wasn't able to nap. Once I started dancing, I had a good time though. I did have a bit of an incident w/ one of my drama queen friends. Her husband tends to start fights at big events & Jeremy sometimes gets annoyed w/ that. I don't dislike this guy, but him & his wife together sometimes are just too much for us. At one point, Jeremy was like I hate Jordan. Jeremy was wasted, so I just told him to quit being mean, but I thought it was weird he brought that up out of nowhere. Anyways at the end of the night Jordan came up to me and said, "are we going to do this now or later?" I am so confused at this point & asked him what he was talking about. He went on to tell me I had asked Katie (wife) and another one of my friends to get out of a picture that I wanted of me w/ my 2 best friends. I was so confused, completely sober & was like WTF!!! Anyway, I went to try to talk with her & she wasn't having it. She was being so stupid, she was wasted & so I was still pretty confused. I learned from a couple of my other friends that for the past couple hours she had been up there crying saying I had told her & another girl to get out of the picture that I wanted of my 2 best friends & me. I am not an evil person, & so I would never intentionally hurt anyone's feelings or exclude them. I told her it was a misunderstanding, but she wouldn't talk to me. I was so annoyed b/c she can be such a fucking drama queen & I knew she had fabricated the story & was trying to get everyone including her parents that were there against me. When we left I found out from Jeremy that Jordan had come up to him and said "why is your wife being mean to my wife." Are we fucking 12, are you kidding me? If I upset you, come talk to me, don't bring our husband's in this, we are no longer in high school, we are what I like to call adults!!! I also found out she was standing at the top of the balcony flipping me off, real mature. I left & figured I would talk with her the next day. She called my best friend that I was staying with the next day & had acted like nothing happened, when she was rude to her too, I was even more annoyed. She called me later on yesterday, and tried to make small talk, finally I brought up the night & told her she misunderstood, she blew things WAY out of proportion & she was wasted & I was sober. She apologized but still acted like a wounded fucking puppy dog. I couldn't remember the incident for the life of me & new it was a misunderstanding, but I remembered this morning that I did ask Jeremy to take a pic of my 2 best friends & me, but is that a sin. Yeah I think she was standing there, but she never posed & I asked her to leave like she told everyone else. I asked myself if I should feel bad, but then I decided that no we are not in high school, I should be able to take a picture with my 2 best friends w/o having to baby those around me. I am just annoyed. We have always butt heads a bit b/c I don't let her act like the world revolves around her & so I think that gets on her nerves, and so she tries to pick fights alot w/ me. Sorry for venting, but I wanted to get it off my chest (which has been very sore lately), so thanks for listening!!!
Have a good Monday.
Beth
Friday, April 18, 2008
My New Body
I am feeling a lot more comfortable, but still nervous about the whole thing. My stomach hasn't felt so uneasy in the past day, but it definitely feels different. I feel like I am always hungry, but anytime I eat, even small amounts, my stomach feels like I feasted for hours. I just feel really huge & bloated, I guess. I know I have put on some pounds in the past couple months from stress & just being a bit depressed, so that extra weight doesn't feel good. I am still slim & not overweight by any means, but it is one of those things when your pants feel way tighter than they used to, and it doesn't make you feel great. I am thinking that it is about time for me to take up walking or at least some form of exercise.
I do kind of wish that I felt the morning sickness a bit more (crazy, I know), just b/c I think it would reassure me a bit. But like everyone keeps telling me, all pregnancies are different, so odds are I'm fine. My boobs did start hurting Wednesday night, and haven't stopped since. I can tell they are bigger than they were just a couple days ago. That is definitely a bonus to all this.
I think that my body is just making lots of changes that I am not used to, so I feel a little uncomfortable in my own body. I know that I will enjoy it, once I get used to it, though.
We are traveling to St. Louis this weekend for a wedding, so I am excited to see all my friends, but I hope none of them catch on.
Have a great weekend.
Beth
I do kind of wish that I felt the morning sickness a bit more (crazy, I know), just b/c I think it would reassure me a bit. But like everyone keeps telling me, all pregnancies are different, so odds are I'm fine. My boobs did start hurting Wednesday night, and haven't stopped since. I can tell they are bigger than they were just a couple days ago. That is definitely a bonus to all this.
I think that my body is just making lots of changes that I am not used to, so I feel a little uncomfortable in my own body. I know that I will enjoy it, once I get used to it, though.
We are traveling to St. Louis this weekend for a wedding, so I am excited to see all my friends, but I hope none of them catch on.
Have a great weekend.
Beth
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Houston, WE HAVE A HEARTBEAT!!!
We just got back from the doctor's office & I am very proud to say I am pregnant with a doodle that has a beating heart!!! It was so incredible to hear & see the heart thumping in doodle's little body. I feel so much more comfortable now. I still told him I wanted to come in again in a little over a week, & then after that I think I will be off to a regular OB.
I am so excited, I can't even explain it. He said that once there is cardiac activity, the chances of carrying the baby to term go up to 90%, so I feel pretty comfortable with that number. I know I still am going to be a nervous wreck, but not nearly as bad as before.
Thank you so much for your support, I have really needed it this week & I feel so much better now.
Looks like my kickball career is over before it started. Oh well, this is WAY worth it!
Have a great day!
Beth
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
This Week is Half Over!!!
I am so glad today is Wednesday. I can't believe I have already made it through 2 long days. I am feeling much better today. My sister called at one point yesterday & I just started bawling letting out all my fears. I think I really just needed to cry. Afterwards I felt much better. I am still extremely nervous for tomorrow's appointment, but there is nothing I can do about it, so I can only pray for the best, & believe me, I do, every other second.
My parents sent me flowers yesterday, b/c my sister called my mom & told her about my bad day. They were so pretty, they also brightened my day. The girls at my work were asking if I was pregnant, oops, another small white lie, I told them no. If this pregnancy works out for the best, they'll find out in a couple weeks, but until then, I am not telling anyone here at work.
Jen & Martha, your comments yesterday came at my lowest points & really gave me some confidence & so I REALLY appreciate them!!! I am such a worry wart & a bit of a pessimist & so sometimes that side gets the better of me. But I realized it doesn't matter how much I worry or try to protect my heart, I will be devastated if this fails, but I will eventually move on. I am really hoping for great betas tomorrow & good news to post.
Wish me luck!
Beth
My parents sent me flowers yesterday, b/c my sister called my mom & told her about my bad day. They were so pretty, they also brightened my day. The girls at my work were asking if I was pregnant, oops, another small white lie, I told them no. If this pregnancy works out for the best, they'll find out in a couple weeks, but until then, I am not telling anyone here at work.
Jen & Martha, your comments yesterday came at my lowest points & really gave me some confidence & so I REALLY appreciate them!!! I am such a worry wart & a bit of a pessimist & so sometimes that side gets the better of me. But I realized it doesn't matter how much I worry or try to protect my heart, I will be devastated if this fails, but I will eventually move on. I am really hoping for great betas tomorrow & good news to post.
Wish me luck!
Beth
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
6 Weeks Down, 34 To Go (hopefully)
So I am feeling a bit down today. I just am not feeling confident about this pregnancy thing going on & I am so scared that this dream will end Thursday morning. I still feel a little uneasy, but a little less than the past few days, which makes me nervous. My boobs don't hurt yet which makes me nervous. I have been crampy every once in a while, which makes me nervous. And I've miscarried before, which makes me nervous. I am just so scared. I hope that all my fears are unwarranted & Thursday we hear our baby's heartbeat & I will be able to relax a bit, but I just don't know.
We told Jeremy's parents last night. They each said they both secretly thought that is why they had to come down for dinner, but his brother & girlfriend had no idea. Everyone was so excited & it was a cry fest like I said, but I did good. It was just how I wanted it to be for telling them.
I have completely broken out again. I think it is all the stress I am putting myself under. I just am so scared. I know I have said that 10 million times, and it is probably getting really old, but I don't know how to explain it any other way.
Any of you that have been pregnant, do my symptoms sound common for a good pregnancy? Are any of you in the same time frame as me? What are you feeling like? I just can't wait for Thursday to be here so I can either start relaxing or start grieving, but I am praying & hoping for the first!!!
Beth
We told Jeremy's parents last night. They each said they both secretly thought that is why they had to come down for dinner, but his brother & girlfriend had no idea. Everyone was so excited & it was a cry fest like I said, but I did good. It was just how I wanted it to be for telling them.
I have completely broken out again. I think it is all the stress I am putting myself under. I just am so scared. I know I have said that 10 million times, and it is probably getting really old, but I don't know how to explain it any other way.
Any of you that have been pregnant, do my symptoms sound common for a good pregnancy? Are any of you in the same time frame as me? What are you feeling like? I just can't wait for Thursday to be here so I can either start relaxing or start grieving, but I am praying & hoping for the first!!!
Beth
Monday, April 14, 2008
Telling My Family - Check!
This weekend seemed like it went by slow b/c we were waiting for last night to get here, so we could tell my family.
Friday night we went out to dinner w/ two of our greatest friends to celebrate. It was a great dinner & nice to hang out with them.
Saturday was spent relaxing & cleaning & then going out w/ friends again. We went to this Casino Night fundraiser for Jeremy's cousin's children's school. I didn't know what it would be like, but we had a blast. His cousin had bought a table, so as soon as we got there, we were able to sit & eat from a wide selection of food that was donated from restaurants in the area. All the drinks anyone could want. I got a glass of wine & just acted like I was drinking it & made Jeremy chug it when no one was looking. I just don't think I will drink at all, not even wine during the pregnancy, but I usually enjoy drinking so I knew I had to at least act like I was so no one got suspicious. I think we played it off well. We then were off to look at the silent auction items. We put our number down on two different massages & then this painting we both loved. At one point, I went back to check on the painting & someone had outbid me, so I put down the next increment needed, thinking I probably wouldn't get it, but it was worth a shot. We then went off to Bingo. I won a bracelet playing that. And finally the card tables opened up. Our group sat down at this table & cashed in our fake money for chips. Luckily, our dealer wanted us to win & so we did, almost every time. By the end we were max betting every time b/c we almost always were winning. They had a casino store set up with things people had donated that you could cash in your chips for. After Jeremy & I had about 4,000 in chips, I started making trips over there. I got SO MANY items by the end of the night. I bet I spent 20-30 thousand in chips throughout the night. Below is my list of items I got:
1. $20 restaurant gift certificate
2. $10 restaurant gift certificate
3. straightener
4. 3-barrel curling iron
5. 4 month supply of Juice Plus
6. charm bracelet
7. 3 baby photo blocks
8. children's book
9. 2 Rachel Ray cookbooks
10. Pampered Chef apple peeler
I think that was it. But I was so excited. As we went to check out, we found out we had won the painting, oops, there goes $75, but after everything we took home, it was well worth it!!! After that we went to a friend's graduation party, where I think I pulled off not being pregnant too, so that is good. I don't want any of our friends to know for a couple weeks.
Sunday was nice. We got the house ready in the morning b/c Jeremy had a group of guys over to watch the Masters. He was glad to hang out w/ his friends & I headed over to my parents. My dad & I got some lunch & then wandered around. He loves to just drive & wander. By the end, my stomach was feeling a bit uneasy, but I didn't want to spill the beans yet, so I didn't mention anything.
I almost wasn't able to tell everyone together. One of my sister's didn't want to come to dinner, so I had to call my sister that knew about it. I asked her to call my sister & tell her she had to come. I felt bad though b/c I knew that my sister probably wishes it was her telling the family about a pregnancy, but she has been really great to me. My other sister decided to come, even though I knew she suspected what was going on, but oh well. During dinner we ate for quite a while then I squeezed Jeremy & he said, "Beth & I have an announcement" and one of my other sister's said, "you're pregnant." After she said it, she felt so bad b/c if we weren't she knew I'd be upset, or if we were, she said it before we could. I didn't really care either way b/c it kind of broke the ice, which was nice. I started crying & everyone was so excited for us. I was glad we did it that way. No one could believe it, so everyone is really excited!!! So I was nervous all day long about the announcement, but it turned out just the way I wanted & I was so happy to do it with everyone together.
We are going to tell Jeremy's parents tonight. I think they suspect a little b/c we had to really do some conning to get them here. They had other plans & didn't want to make the hour + trip to have dinner w/ us, so finally Jeremy was just like, "be there at 6:30pm, period, no questions asked." So they have to suspect something, but they still are going to be so thrilled!!! Jeremy's mom is quite emotional (like I'm not, but she is really bad sometimes) and Jeremy took after her & I know I will be a mess too, so this could get ugly, but I am really excited!!!
Every day I am still really nervous that this dream is going to end, but I am trying to enjoy it while it lasts. My stomach has felt very uneasy the past few days. I haven't been nauseous, but definitely uneasy. I think I have a bit more exhausted than usual, but who knows, I am always tired. My boobs haven't started to hurt yet, so I don't know when that will happen. I do feel them getting a bit bigger. So those are my symptoms as of today. I know I am going to grow more nervous as Thursday approaches. I am just so scared that there won't be a heartbeat:( I just don't know what I would do. So please keep your fingers crossed that this pregnancy will stick & we will have a healthy baby in December!!!
Thank you SO MUCH for all you comments. I love reading them, b/c it makes me feel so happy!!! I really appreciate all your all's support.
Have a great day.
Beth
Friday night we went out to dinner w/ two of our greatest friends to celebrate. It was a great dinner & nice to hang out with them.
Saturday was spent relaxing & cleaning & then going out w/ friends again. We went to this Casino Night fundraiser for Jeremy's cousin's children's school. I didn't know what it would be like, but we had a blast. His cousin had bought a table, so as soon as we got there, we were able to sit & eat from a wide selection of food that was donated from restaurants in the area. All the drinks anyone could want. I got a glass of wine & just acted like I was drinking it & made Jeremy chug it when no one was looking. I just don't think I will drink at all, not even wine during the pregnancy, but I usually enjoy drinking so I knew I had to at least act like I was so no one got suspicious. I think we played it off well. We then were off to look at the silent auction items. We put our number down on two different massages & then this painting we both loved. At one point, I went back to check on the painting & someone had outbid me, so I put down the next increment needed, thinking I probably wouldn't get it, but it was worth a shot. We then went off to Bingo. I won a bracelet playing that. And finally the card tables opened up. Our group sat down at this table & cashed in our fake money for chips. Luckily, our dealer wanted us to win & so we did, almost every time. By the end we were max betting every time b/c we almost always were winning. They had a casino store set up with things people had donated that you could cash in your chips for. After Jeremy & I had about 4,000 in chips, I started making trips over there. I got SO MANY items by the end of the night. I bet I spent 20-30 thousand in chips throughout the night. Below is my list of items I got:
1. $20 restaurant gift certificate
2. $10 restaurant gift certificate
3. straightener
4. 3-barrel curling iron
5. 4 month supply of Juice Plus
6. charm bracelet
7. 3 baby photo blocks
8. children's book
9. 2 Rachel Ray cookbooks
10. Pampered Chef apple peeler
I think that was it. But I was so excited. As we went to check out, we found out we had won the painting, oops, there goes $75, but after everything we took home, it was well worth it!!! After that we went to a friend's graduation party, where I think I pulled off not being pregnant too, so that is good. I don't want any of our friends to know for a couple weeks.
Sunday was nice. We got the house ready in the morning b/c Jeremy had a group of guys over to watch the Masters. He was glad to hang out w/ his friends & I headed over to my parents. My dad & I got some lunch & then wandered around. He loves to just drive & wander. By the end, my stomach was feeling a bit uneasy, but I didn't want to spill the beans yet, so I didn't mention anything.
I almost wasn't able to tell everyone together. One of my sister's didn't want to come to dinner, so I had to call my sister that knew about it. I asked her to call my sister & tell her she had to come. I felt bad though b/c I knew that my sister probably wishes it was her telling the family about a pregnancy, but she has been really great to me. My other sister decided to come, even though I knew she suspected what was going on, but oh well. During dinner we ate for quite a while then I squeezed Jeremy & he said, "Beth & I have an announcement" and one of my other sister's said, "you're pregnant." After she said it, she felt so bad b/c if we weren't she knew I'd be upset, or if we were, she said it before we could. I didn't really care either way b/c it kind of broke the ice, which was nice. I started crying & everyone was so excited for us. I was glad we did it that way. No one could believe it, so everyone is really excited!!! So I was nervous all day long about the announcement, but it turned out just the way I wanted & I was so happy to do it with everyone together.
We are going to tell Jeremy's parents tonight. I think they suspect a little b/c we had to really do some conning to get them here. They had other plans & didn't want to make the hour + trip to have dinner w/ us, so finally Jeremy was just like, "be there at 6:30pm, period, no questions asked." So they have to suspect something, but they still are going to be so thrilled!!! Jeremy's mom is quite emotional (like I'm not, but she is really bad sometimes) and Jeremy took after her & I know I will be a mess too, so this could get ugly, but I am really excited!!!
Every day I am still really nervous that this dream is going to end, but I am trying to enjoy it while it lasts. My stomach has felt very uneasy the past few days. I haven't been nauseous, but definitely uneasy. I think I have a bit more exhausted than usual, but who knows, I am always tired. My boobs haven't started to hurt yet, so I don't know when that will happen. I do feel them getting a bit bigger. So those are my symptoms as of today. I know I am going to grow more nervous as Thursday approaches. I am just so scared that there won't be a heartbeat:( I just don't know what I would do. So please keep your fingers crossed that this pregnancy will stick & we will have a healthy baby in December!!!
Thank you SO MUCH for all you comments. I love reading them, b/c it makes me feel so happy!!! I really appreciate all your all's support.
Have a great day.
Beth
Friday, April 11, 2008
Waiting...
I am waiting on the lab results and feel so sick anticipating them. I didn't sleep at all last night & I think I might hurl. I now have to go run an errand with my boss & I will probably be w/ him when I find out. I just don't want to lose it, if they call with bad news. So I am really hoping that I will have good news in a couple hours to post, but I am trying to be a bit protective of my heart right now.
Beth
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Beta results: 13,000. I can't believe it. She called just like I thought, when I was in the car w/ my boss, a little uncomfortable, yes. First off I will say, that all I could hear in my head this morning is her calling and saying, "Beth, I am so sorry..." It had been repeating over & over in my head!!! I was so scared. So anyway she called and asked, "Has it sunk in yet." I said, "No." And she still wasn't talking in a really excited voice, so I was still waiting for the "I'm so sorry" comment. She then said, "Beth, I want to reassure you with some numbers." She went over all my beta counts from my miscarriage month in January, and said the highest count I had then was 159, and then she paused and said, "Beth, your test yesterday was 13,000." I know I immediately had a smile on my face. I can NOT believe it. I thought I wouldn't relax at all until I heard the heartbeat, but a number like 13,000 after having 159 has really calmed my nerves quite a bit!!! I still can't wait to hear the heartbeat, and we scheduled that for next Thursday morning & Jeremy will be there with me. I am just so excited.
While waiting on my blog to come up, I looked at the URL address & realized I titled the website address as "waiting on my miracle." I just think that is so neat, that that is exactly what has happened. I really have been blessed with a miracle.
We haven't told anybody really yet. Our best friends know about the blog & that is it, so they knew yesterday. I also told my oldest sister today. I knew we would tell her first out of my family, b/c she has been trying to get pregnant longer than we have, therefore I wanted to protect her from our big announcement to our family. She was excited. I am just hoping that soon she will have the good news of a baby to share too.
I think that we are going to tell my family this Sunday. My whole family gets together every Sunday & eats dinner together, so I think that is the perfect way to surprise them. Jeremy's parents are at the lake, but we are going to plan a dinner for them & his brother & his girlfriend on their way home probably Monday or Tuesday night to tell them, they aren't going to believe it!!! His parents will have their first grandchild!!! Everyone is going to be so shocked, b/c I had just sent an email out to our families explaining that this month the eggs were on the bad side & no pregnancy when that happens (little did I know, God was in my corner).
Thank you all for your congrats comments. I am literally in shock right now. I am going to celebrate tonight eating out at my favorite restaurant, Brio!!!
Have a great day!
Beth
Beth
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Beta results: 13,000. I can't believe it. She called just like I thought, when I was in the car w/ my boss, a little uncomfortable, yes. First off I will say, that all I could hear in my head this morning is her calling and saying, "Beth, I am so sorry..." It had been repeating over & over in my head!!! I was so scared. So anyway she called and asked, "Has it sunk in yet." I said, "No." And she still wasn't talking in a really excited voice, so I was still waiting for the "I'm so sorry" comment. She then said, "Beth, I want to reassure you with some numbers." She went over all my beta counts from my miscarriage month in January, and said the highest count I had then was 159, and then she paused and said, "Beth, your test yesterday was 13,000." I know I immediately had a smile on my face. I can NOT believe it. I thought I wouldn't relax at all until I heard the heartbeat, but a number like 13,000 after having 159 has really calmed my nerves quite a bit!!! I still can't wait to hear the heartbeat, and we scheduled that for next Thursday morning & Jeremy will be there with me. I am just so excited.
While waiting on my blog to come up, I looked at the URL address & realized I titled the website address as "waiting on my miracle." I just think that is so neat, that that is exactly what has happened. I really have been blessed with a miracle.
We haven't told anybody really yet. Our best friends know about the blog & that is it, so they knew yesterday. I also told my oldest sister today. I knew we would tell her first out of my family, b/c she has been trying to get pregnant longer than we have, therefore I wanted to protect her from our big announcement to our family. She was excited. I am just hoping that soon she will have the good news of a baby to share too.
I think that we are going to tell my family this Sunday. My whole family gets together every Sunday & eats dinner together, so I think that is the perfect way to surprise them. Jeremy's parents are at the lake, but we are going to plan a dinner for them & his brother & his girlfriend on their way home probably Monday or Tuesday night to tell them, they aren't going to believe it!!! His parents will have their first grandchild!!! Everyone is going to be so shocked, b/c I had just sent an email out to our families explaining that this month the eggs were on the bad side & no pregnancy when that happens (little did I know, God was in my corner).
Thank you all for your congrats comments. I am literally in shock right now. I am going to celebrate tonight eating out at my favorite restaurant, Brio!!!
Have a great day!
Beth
Thursday, April 10, 2008
MIRACLES DO HAPPEN!!!
I just got back from the doctor's office...
THEY SAY I'M PREGNANT!!! Yes, you heard me right. I can't believe it myself. She did an u/s & she said, "Beth, you're pregnant." And I said, "no." And she said, "you're about 5 weeks along." And I said, "if this is real, it is a miracle, if I've ever seen one!!!" I then went & did b/w. A new nurse took over at that point. They took blood to get sent to the lab & for a pregnancy test right there. I was about ready to throw up, I was so scared. They showed me the pregnancy test & it showed positive right away. I couldn't believe it, literally, and I am still scared to. The doctor then came in to talk to me, that is a miracle in itself. He said they have only a few documented cases where someone has got pregnant when eggs were only on the blocked tube side. I really feel like a miracle is happening, but I am scared I am going to wake up to another miscarriage. They said they would have the blood results from the lab & would call & let me know. I think I need to hold my breath until then. I just kept telling them how scared I was, one of the nurses then said, "don't be scared, be hopeful." Well that is easy to say, but so hard to do. They let me keep the picture & pregnancy test. I drove straight to Jeremy's work & made him come out. I said, "Babe, miracles do happen." He said, "you're pregnant." And then I smiled & we hugged & kissed & it was everything we wanted it to be. We are both extremely scared, but happy right now. I decided that I will call the baby, my little doodlebug. Dorky, I know, Lame, yes, but I am excited & can't help my corny self. So thank you all for your encouraging words about my bad month, you all gave me good luck & it's looking to not be a bad month after all. If this is for real, I have really been blessed, and even if it doesn't turn out, it is still a miracle that it happened. So I will keep you posted after I hear from the RE tomorrow w/ my blood results. Keep your fingers crossed that this one sticks!!!
Have a great day! I AM!!!
Beth
*****
And I want to apologize for me so overly excited. I know it could be hurtful to some, but please know that I am not trying to put my good news in anyone's face. I just really wanted to share it with all of you that read & I know care about what is going on with me.
THEY SAY I'M PREGNANT!!! Yes, you heard me right. I can't believe it myself. She did an u/s & she said, "Beth, you're pregnant." And I said, "no." And she said, "you're about 5 weeks along." And I said, "if this is real, it is a miracle, if I've ever seen one!!!" I then went & did b/w. A new nurse took over at that point. They took blood to get sent to the lab & for a pregnancy test right there. I was about ready to throw up, I was so scared. They showed me the pregnancy test & it showed positive right away. I couldn't believe it, literally, and I am still scared to. The doctor then came in to talk to me, that is a miracle in itself. He said they have only a few documented cases where someone has got pregnant when eggs were only on the blocked tube side. I really feel like a miracle is happening, but I am scared I am going to wake up to another miscarriage. They said they would have the blood results from the lab & would call & let me know. I think I need to hold my breath until then. I just kept telling them how scared I was, one of the nurses then said, "don't be scared, be hopeful." Well that is easy to say, but so hard to do. They let me keep the picture & pregnancy test. I drove straight to Jeremy's work & made him come out. I said, "Babe, miracles do happen." He said, "you're pregnant." And then I smiled & we hugged & kissed & it was everything we wanted it to be. We are both extremely scared, but happy right now. I decided that I will call the baby, my little doodlebug. Dorky, I know, Lame, yes, but I am excited & can't help my corny self. So thank you all for your encouraging words about my bad month, you all gave me good luck & it's looking to not be a bad month after all. If this is for real, I have really been blessed, and even if it doesn't turn out, it is still a miracle that it happened. So I will keep you posted after I hear from the RE tomorrow w/ my blood results. Keep your fingers crossed that this one sticks!!!
Have a great day! I AM!!!
Beth
*****
And I want to apologize for me so overly excited. I know it could be hurtful to some, but please know that I am not trying to put my good news in anyone's face. I just really wanted to share it with all of you that read & I know care about what is going on with me.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Day 36 and counting!!!
Well still no sign of AF ANYWHERE! Where the hell could she be, seriously!!! What is taking so long for her arrival??? I am so curious as to what the fuck is going on inside my god damn body it is ridiculous!!! I couldn't sleep last night b/c all I thought about was this. I mean I found out on March 17th that my eggs were on the bad side. At the time, being very naive & not thinking straight, I told myself that I only had 4 weeks to wait until I would hopefully see eggs on the good side. Here we are 5 days away from the 4 weeks being up & I haven't even started my period which means I have 2 more weeks once that comes. I just feel so stupid thinking about how I thought these weeks would be hard but I could get through them, it was only 4, but here we are almost to 4 & now it is looking like it is going to be more like a 6 week wait. Okay I know I rambling, but I am just frustrated.
I really enjoyed reading all of your stories in my comments section & really appreciate you all taking the time to tell them to me. It does settle my nerves hearing about others with blocked tubes. I just don't think I had found some of your all's blogs & so I hadn't heard of many people, hardly any, with that problem & was feeling quite confused. I am not glad that others are in my boat, but it does allow me to feel a bit more comfortable.
I think I am going to call me RE today & ask if they have any ideas as to what is going on with me this cycle. I think I am going to ask them if an ultrasound would shed any light on the mystery, and if so if there is any way they would be able to classify the examine as irregular periods instead of IF so it would be covered by the insurance. I don't think that is asking too much, b/c right now that is the exact reason for getting the ultrasound, but I just don't know. Before I found out about the blocked tube, I received an ultrasound & they were able to cover it under irregular periods b/c it's the truth, I have some really fucked up, irregular periods. We'll see, I think I have to try, otherwise I might go crazy. I will keep you posted.
Alright, I better get back to work!
Have a great day!
Beth
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So I just talked w/ the nurse practitioner & she didn't really know what was going on either. She said that she would get me in tomorrow to check my lining. I also asked her about if I would have to pay & she said NO!!! She said it would be covered by the insurance b/c of the reasons!!! Yipee!!! So hopefully we will find out some info tomorrow to shed some light on this VERY frustrating month!!!
I really enjoyed reading all of your stories in my comments section & really appreciate you all taking the time to tell them to me. It does settle my nerves hearing about others with blocked tubes. I just don't think I had found some of your all's blogs & so I hadn't heard of many people, hardly any, with that problem & was feeling quite confused. I am not glad that others are in my boat, but it does allow me to feel a bit more comfortable.
I think I am going to call me RE today & ask if they have any ideas as to what is going on with me this cycle. I think I am going to ask them if an ultrasound would shed any light on the mystery, and if so if there is any way they would be able to classify the examine as irregular periods instead of IF so it would be covered by the insurance. I don't think that is asking too much, b/c right now that is the exact reason for getting the ultrasound, but I just don't know. Before I found out about the blocked tube, I received an ultrasound & they were able to cover it under irregular periods b/c it's the truth, I have some really fucked up, irregular periods. We'll see, I think I have to try, otherwise I might go crazy. I will keep you posted.
Alright, I better get back to work!
Have a great day!
Beth
******
So I just talked w/ the nurse practitioner & she didn't really know what was going on either. She said that she would get me in tomorrow to check my lining. I also asked her about if I would have to pay & she said NO!!! She said it would be covered by the insurance b/c of the reasons!!! Yipee!!! So hopefully we will find out some info tomorrow to shed some light on this VERY frustrating month!!!
Monday, April 7, 2008
F the Dentist :(
I just had my annual dentist visit about 6 months too late. It sucked. My whole mouth is throbbing. I hate going to the dentist. I always feel guilty b/c I don't floss & then I feel like I have gross teeth & they will make fun after I leave. I just hate it. I have to get a couple fillings in a couple weeks, no fun!!!
My body is still NOT cooperating with my head or heart. I am now on day 34 & really ready for AF to arrive. I am starting to get a bit down in the dumps, but still trying to stay positive but it is really hard. I am crampy again, extra bitchy & my boobs hurt, so I feel like I should be close, but I just can't trust my body anymore & that really sucks.
This girl that just got arrested & is being held in the jail (I work for a Police Department), is 8 months pregnant just got released from a different jail on a felony charge & looked entirely fucked up. What the hell, why is she pregnant, that just makes me so sad for the baby!!!
We went to Jeremy's little cousin's first communion yesterday & there were these 2 girls that you could tell were adopted b/c they were a different ethnicity than their parents & Jeremy was ready to go adopt a child yesterday. He had the paperwork filled out in his head. I think I am going to have to get through a couple more months before I get there, but after that, I think I will right with him.
Of all the blogs I've read, I haven't really found where one person's story is the same. And with that, I have noticed that no one really has had the problem that I have had of having a blocked tube. So I am asking people now, is that what is causing in of your all's infertility issues. I know we are all in the same boat of infertility, but I think that I might feel a little bit better talking with anyone that is going through the exact type of infertility as me??? Please comment if so, I think I could really use your words of guidance & support.
The little baby Ethan that I have his blog on my favorites list, passed away this past Saturday. All of his organs shut down & he died in his parents arms. Please pray for his family that they get through this tough time.
Have a great Monday!
Beth
My body is still NOT cooperating with my head or heart. I am now on day 34 & really ready for AF to arrive. I am starting to get a bit down in the dumps, but still trying to stay positive but it is really hard. I am crampy again, extra bitchy & my boobs hurt, so I feel like I should be close, but I just can't trust my body anymore & that really sucks.
This girl that just got arrested & is being held in the jail (I work for a Police Department), is 8 months pregnant just got released from a different jail on a felony charge & looked entirely fucked up. What the hell, why is she pregnant, that just makes me so sad for the baby!!!
We went to Jeremy's little cousin's first communion yesterday & there were these 2 girls that you could tell were adopted b/c they were a different ethnicity than their parents & Jeremy was ready to go adopt a child yesterday. He had the paperwork filled out in his head. I think I am going to have to get through a couple more months before I get there, but after that, I think I will right with him.
Of all the blogs I've read, I haven't really found where one person's story is the same. And with that, I have noticed that no one really has had the problem that I have had of having a blocked tube. So I am asking people now, is that what is causing in of your all's infertility issues. I know we are all in the same boat of infertility, but I think that I might feel a little bit better talking with anyone that is going through the exact type of infertility as me??? Please comment if so, I think I could really use your words of guidance & support.
The little baby Ethan that I have his blog on my favorites list, passed away this past Saturday. All of his organs shut down & he died in his parents arms. Please pray for his family that they get through this tough time.
Have a great Monday!
Beth
Friday, April 4, 2008
Irregular Cycles
TGIF!!! I am so glad it is Friday. We are not going to have too big of a weekend, but that will be nice. We are hosting Jeremy's parents & grandparents for a big taco lunch tomorrow so we have a lot to prepare, but it is supposed to be in the high 60's so I am excited!!!
I still haven't started my period. I have always had somewhat of irregular periods, but lately it is so frustrating. My cycles are usually 30-31 days which sucks, especially since I read some girls (Jen) has 24 day cycles. That would be incredible, even though you would have your period more, for people w/ infertility issues it is a bonus. So I am on day 31 today. I haven't had any spotting this month which is a little abnormal & I have been really crampy which is also abnormal. It feels like it felt when I was miscarrying, so I don't know what that means since there was no way of me getting pregnant this month. I did notice in the shower this morning that my boobs are getting bigger, which usually happens 3-4 days before I start. But that kind of sucks if I have to wait 3-4 more days to start. I want to start this new cycle now. It is just so frustrating waiting. When we found out the eggs were on the bad side all I was thinking was 4 weeks exactly & I could start over. I forgot that my cycles were longer than 28 days & especially after the miscarriage they have been longer than 30-31 days. Oh well, but I am ready!!!
Have a great weekend!!!
Beth
I still haven't started my period. I have always had somewhat of irregular periods, but lately it is so frustrating. My cycles are usually 30-31 days which sucks, especially since I read some girls (Jen) has 24 day cycles. That would be incredible, even though you would have your period more, for people w/ infertility issues it is a bonus. So I am on day 31 today. I haven't had any spotting this month which is a little abnormal & I have been really crampy which is also abnormal. It feels like it felt when I was miscarrying, so I don't know what that means since there was no way of me getting pregnant this month. I did notice in the shower this morning that my boobs are getting bigger, which usually happens 3-4 days before I start. But that kind of sucks if I have to wait 3-4 more days to start. I want to start this new cycle now. It is just so frustrating waiting. When we found out the eggs were on the bad side all I was thinking was 4 weeks exactly & I could start over. I forgot that my cycles were longer than 28 days & especially after the miscarriage they have been longer than 30-31 days. Oh well, but I am ready!!!
Have a great weekend!!!
Beth
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
I LOVE SPRING!
It is just past 8am & I am having a great day! It feels so great to wake up to a bit of sunlight & not pitch blackness. When I was walking into work today the birds were chirping. I just feel like it is a great day to be alive!!!
I have been doing great lately. I am waiting for AF now. I haven't started yet, which is kind of worrying me again this month. I haven't had any spotting, which I usually do & I should start any day. I was really crampy a few days ago, but yesterday I felt nothing. I am just worried about what is going on inside my body. I guess I can't do anything about it so I should stop freaking out.
JEREMY WON!!! He lost 50 pounds. I am so proud of him. The guy that was really close with him didn't even show up for the weigh in. He called and said he had only lost a little over 40 pounds & so that wasn't going to be good enough. I bought Jerm 2 rounds golf at this nice golf course in Kansas City as a surprise & he was so excited. He deserves it. His boss wasn't happy that Jeremy now weighs a few pounds less than him & wanted to have a round 2 of the Biggest Loser. Jeremy kept telling him no, but then said he would. So he could win another $50 if his boss loses again.
I start kickball tomorrow. I am really nervous. I hope that I do good, but we'll see. I am just am not in shape at all & so it could get interesting.
Have a great day!!!
Beth
I have been doing great lately. I am waiting for AF now. I haven't started yet, which is kind of worrying me again this month. I haven't had any spotting, which I usually do & I should start any day. I was really crampy a few days ago, but yesterday I felt nothing. I am just worried about what is going on inside my body. I guess I can't do anything about it so I should stop freaking out.
JEREMY WON!!! He lost 50 pounds. I am so proud of him. The guy that was really close with him didn't even show up for the weigh in. He called and said he had only lost a little over 40 pounds & so that wasn't going to be good enough. I bought Jerm 2 rounds golf at this nice golf course in Kansas City as a surprise & he was so excited. He deserves it. His boss wasn't happy that Jeremy now weighs a few pounds less than him & wanted to have a round 2 of the Biggest Loser. Jeremy kept telling him no, but then said he would. So he could win another $50 if his boss loses again.
I start kickball tomorrow. I am really nervous. I hope that I do good, but we'll see. I am just am not in shape at all & so it could get interesting.
Have a great day!!!
Beth
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